look what i can do   so here's some pics from christmas:

that's me and that's my car...somewhere....

there's the family, including my estranged grandfather whose finally decided to come around.

and this is my favorite pic because it reflects my christmas quite well....just plain whacked.

4 hour trip to murray state is successfull.  i loved it.  i loved the school, i loved the area and i've never seen such friendly people in all of my life.  it's beautiful.  now i just gotta put in all my aps.  yay!

ooohhhh what a life i've been leading.  ok so my mom and i are in an apartment and it's great.  i love it.  it's really cute and i just got my new bedroom suit in today and it's beautiful.  it's done kind of tropical and i bought a fish and a real palm tree. 

tomorrow morning i'm going on a road trip to check out a school.  i'm really looking forward to going.  it's kind of out in the country but i might not mind at all.

funny story: ok yesterday morning i woke up with cramps, so i went and took two pills and went back to bed.  i woke up again and i was still hurting so i popped one more pill.  well as the day went on i just felt really weak and felt like i was going to pass out. then as i was watching american idol my jaw starting quivering and i couldnt get it to stop...it was really freaky.  so my mom went to the medicine cabinet and realized that instead of taking tylenol i had taken zoloft.  i overdosed on an antidepressant! ok haha that's all

aahhh!!  i'm having such a horrible christmas it's not even funny.  i went shopping with my mom today and just broke down in the fitting room.  so i thought i'd go get a hair cut to cheer myself up but nooooo not even that goes right.  i quit my job, actually i told my boss off...it was fun i've got a sinus infection, all my belongings are scattered.  some at my aunts, my cousins, my grammas, my sisters....i'm livivng at of a box.  my nice clothes are drapped on one side and my bum clothes are on the other side of the box.  so about my hair cut, i look like a little boy who needs a hair cut.  it's sooooo ugly.  but all i can do is laugh.  haha.  so, i've always wondered if i could pull off one of those real short boy cuts and since i'm half way there, i'm just going to go for it.  i'm so embarrassed but what the hell.